1st Trimester.  WOW.  Disaster.  I think back to the day that I found out I was pregnant.  I'm 41 years old, much older than your average 1st time mom is.  I had pretty much made a life plan that didn't include kids and figured, if it happens it happens. 

*Freak out mode set in 

*Morning sickness set in (whoever decided to call this morning sickness, clearly never had it.)

*Hormonal and unable to control emotions (sorry work friends and Brian). :)

*Tired, lazy, unable to move from the couch

*Quit exercising

*Couldn't eat an actual meal (only small snacks) and definitely gagged at the though of warm meat

*Wondered if I'd be a good mom

*I've gotten pretty selfish with my time in my 41 years.  Often thought, "Can I do this?"

*MAJOR life change.  "Am I ready for this?"

*Babies R Us?  Really?  Me?  

*What To Expect When You're Expecting?  You want me to read this?  Really?  Me?

AND THEN I CAME TO MY SENSES

2nd Trimester.  LOVE IT!!!  I could do this all year long!  

Talk about feeling on top of the world, loving life, excited for the future. 

A friend I met said that everything you think is like sending little tiny postcards to your baby to fill them in on how it is on the outside.  I loved that saying!  I hope he/she knows that there's more to life than Milk Duds & Dots though. #yikes

Feeling little fluttering kicks is pretty cool and going to Babies R Us isn't a task like it always has been. Maternity clothes can be stylish, and I feel great because I'm working out again!  Even better, I'm working out with a gaggle of other moms and mom's-to-be which makes it even more fun!  Seeing 3D pictures, looking at a little foot, the 4 chambers of the heart, is for better lack of words, unbelievable. 

So Friday night, I got some new maternity clothes from my sister and I was trying some things on. I caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror and then felt the baby kick.  I did a double take in the mirror and had a moment. I looked at myself and thought, "Damn woman, you have come a LONG way!"  I got teary eyed because I still find it hard to believe that someone like me, who might have missed the boat earlier in life, who never in a zillion years ever thought she'd be pregnant, is looking in a mirror at her baby bump... and loving it!!  We're half way there!